Forty Reasons Why I Write

I’m taking the 40 Reasons “Why Do You Write?” Challenge by Bryan Hutchinson.  Can I come up with forty reasons why I write?  The first eight or so seemed easy; the rest required a little digging.

At first glance forty reasons seem like a lot! But I’m up for the challenge. Thanks Bryan! So here goes.

  • I write:
    1. To fulfill a childhood dream
    2. To inform
    3. To educate
    4. To be heard
    5. To affirm
    6. To be affirmed
    7. To laugh
    8. To make other people laugh
    9. To claim my spot in the company of other writers
    10. To dream
    11. To practice
    12. To ask
    13. To tell my stories
    14. To tell my family’s stories
    15. To tell the stories of the people I love
    16. To tell the stories of the places I love
    17. To reconnect with old friends
    18. To make new friends
    19. To create beautiful images with words
    20. To inspire myself
    21. To inspire others
    22. To think of new ways to say old things
    23. To find my way
    24. To help people think in new and different ways
    25. To release anger
    26. To bring closure to difficult issues
    27. To bring clarity to difficult or confusing issues
    28. To resolve anxiety
    29. To get published
    30. To make a living from my own talents and drive
    31. To be my own boss
    32. To have other people read and react to what I write
    33. Because it’s what I’m good at
    34. Because writing raises my self-esteem
    35. So that I can help other write better
    36. To live life twice – once in the doing and once in the telling
    37. To give voice to social needs
    38. To say something important
    39. Because I am happiest when I am putting words to paper
    40. So I can call myself a writer

Putting this list together was invigorating, empowering, and made me take a good hard look at the reasons why I write.  If you would like to take the 40 Reasons “Why Do You Write?” Challenge by Bryan Hutchinson, go here  http:/positivewriter.com/reasons-why-write-challenge/ and get started!

Breathe

Breathe

I think breathing is something we take for granted. It’s something that your brain tells your body to do and we inhale and exhale without thinking much about it unless we are underwater or in some other way deprived of oxygen, and then it becomes something we have to think about consciously.  And so, while I was aware for a long time that I had the symptoms of sleep apnea, I thought I was getting a good night sleep and doing just fine even if I was annoying other people with my horrible snoring.

Two years ago I suddenly began to go downhill.  I could no longer focus on tasks set before me. Multi-tasking was impossible, something I used to do with ease.  Moving around became more difficult and I gained weight.  My feet took on a dusky appearance and I blamed it on my socks and shoes rubbing off dye and staining my feet.  Only the tips of my toes were pink – a straight line across the top of my foot.  My ankles swelled.  And yet none of this alarmed me, I had an excuse for everything.  That is, until my yearly blood test revealed an elevated red blood cell count that had reached into the dangerous levels.  And I remembered the lab technician having trouble drawing the blood which was thick and didn’t flow well into the vial.  In the middle of filling the tube my blood simply stopped flowing.  She ended up having to start a new draw in my opposite arm in order to fill the vial.  What I thought was some error in procedure turned out to be a symptom of my problem.

After my doctor read the results, she began actively searching for reasons my red blood cell count was so high.  The first step was to check for apnea, so she ordered a night pulse oximeter test.  Overnight I wore a device on my finger to check on my oxygen levels as I slept.  The results revealed that my oxygen was dropping into the 70 to 80 percent range at certain points in the night. My pulse was dropping as low as 34 beats per minute.  To clarify that this was apnea, I took part in a sleep study where I slept in a lab at the hospital and was wired up with every possible kind of monitor and also observed by trained specialists as I slept.  The session was recorded.  About half way through the night the technician shook my shoulder and said I had been identified as someone needing continuous positive airway pressure (CPAP) treatment.  A mask was fitted on my face and I was hooked up to the CPAP machine and I slept the most refreshing sleep I had had in years.  After a doctor reviewed all the results of the sleep study, it was confirmed that I had apnea up to 40 times per hour, and was never getting to a level of deep sleep even though I wasn’t aware my body was waking me up every minute or less than a minute to remind me to breathe.  I had both obstructive apnea, where the airway becomes blocked, and central apnea, where the brain forgets to tell your body to breathe.  All these years I could have easily died in my sleep and no one would have known why.

Fast forward to now. It’s been a year since I have been using the CPAP machine every single night and I’m doing better in so many ways. My red blood cell count is back in the high normal range, I can enjoy reading again and concentrate on tasks that had been eluding me.  My ability to walk and exercise improved and so did my weight. My feet are normal color again. After two years of being acutely aware of my breathing, I have learned not to take breath and oxygen for granted.  I live in a high altitude area (8,000 feet above sea level).  But even those of you that don’t have environmental or physical challenges to your breathing should pay attention to it.

As we are on the cusp of a new year, make a decision to raise your consciousness by concentrating on every breath you take in and breathe out.  Spend time in non-polluted areas such as the outdoors so that you are breathing in fresh air un-laden with chemicals, heavy metals, poisons from emissions from industry or buildings.  If you smoke, quit.  Don’t let those chemicals you are drawing into your body alter your ability to wholly participate in life.  Don’t let smoking shorten your time on this earth.  When you concentrate on breathing you will increase your overall level of focus, emotional stability, and level of consciousness.

Whatever creative path you follow, you will benefit from increasing your mental focus.  You will have a better understanding of yourself and concepts that once seemed difficult to understand will become knowledge you can easily grasp.  You will have more clarity about yourself and the world around you.  You will improve your life.  Make 2017 the year you start to improve your life, simply by breathing.